
Baby is sick with something. Maybe a cold? Maybe allergies? His nose sounds clogged and he had some snot come out this morning. No runny nose yet.
And I am sick because I really wanna just put him down and let him cry it out. I have as bad a memory as baby does. Despite the fact that he slept from 11:30pm last night to 3:30am this morning I feel like I can't take it anymore. I just want him to go to take a nap. I want him to stay asleep when I put him down. I am sick of his waking up every time I lay him down.
He woke up at 5:15am this morning. I fed him at 6:45am, it is 8:15am he is not willing to nap. If I pick him up he is cranky and sleepy so I rock him till he is drowsy and nods his head. He is swaddled and in his crib and whimpering. I know that his being sick isn't making him feel any better but I really want him to not sleep in my arms.
I went out yesterday to lactation support group so it's not like I don't get out of the house. I am just a cold bitch really. I can't wait till I can let him cry it out.
Well I am holding him in my arms now. Time for my morning cupcake. Way to self-medicate!!!
